Insomnia and stress

So they say no news is good news however with a weight loss blog it's not so good.  Stress and this insomnia is kicking my rear. See, I am not one of those persons who HATE to work out. I actually love it BUT (and I KNOW this sounds like an excuse) its hard trying to feel like working out when you are so tired you cannot lift your head.  I slept some the last few nights so I am praying that it is coming to a close.  Getting rid of the dark circles to go away would be fantastic.Next goal, win the lottery! Not a lot just enough to catch up on all my bills and set some money aside for my children and grandson. To anyone who may read this, you should know. It does not take money to lose weight. I am not wealthy. We get by.  However, I refuse to fail this time. This is life and death and I am choosing life.

Weigh in #3 Way overdue

Tom arrived and I could tell because I could not get motivated.  I have a horrible time during that week.  The good news is I did manage to lose something but not much lol.  I lost 1.2 pounds for a total loss of  9.4 pounds.  I am hoping I hit that 10 pound mark this week. I neeeedd to dye my hair lol.  My sons new nickname for me is salt and pepper.  I think he forgets that him and his sister has caused that gray hair. I haven't been in the gym for over a week :o
Yes I know. I need to get back in there. I know excuses are excuses but for anyone who has had insomnia can testify that it really alters your day to day life. It throws your body completely off and just basic functioning is a challenge.  I nap when I can and sleep a few hours at night.  
I am going to start doing dvd workouts during the day this week.  I sure have spent enough money on them. I may as well get some use out of them.  
So the few of you that get on here and read this I am about 1 pound away from my first mini goal.
Say a prayer for me.


Also on a non weight loss note..Extend those prayers to my little sister who had my niece at 25 weeks is now facing having my nephew early.  Her cervix has started to weaken and she is only 22 weeks. 


Much love
Kristy!

 

Ugh!

Whyyyyyy am I so hungry at night time? I am going through insomnia and I am up most of the night and I am having a large problem staying away from food. I have tried "free foods" and nope. Still starving.

Random rambling..Haha

So it's 4:20 am and of coarse yours truly is awake.  One, I must say it is hot as balls in this house tonight.  Two, rain makes nearly everyone sleepy.  Why not me? Three, teenagers are crazy, bi polar little "demons" lol.  I have two so yes please say a prayer for me.  Four, I cannot figure out how to show all my posts on one page and it's driving me crazy.  Five, the scale is my worst enemy and I wish I could stay off of it except for Sundays.  Six, I really wish my family would take an interest in my weight loss.  I don't think they care one way or another.  Seriously, I have to argue, complain and beg for my daughter to go to the gym with me.  I don't know if that is a motivator or depressor.  Okay time to try to sleep again.  Wish me luck.

Weigh in #2

After a very rough week I worked out hard the past two nights.  I am back up to 30 minutes on the elliptical and plan to move up to 35-40 after my rest days this week.  I am afraid my legs are much to sore to try to push another 5-10 minutes now.  I also am going to set a goal to do 10 minutes on the dreaded arc trainer. If you don't know what this beast is..check out the picture and links below.  I asked youtube what it was and noone seemed to know but then on last weeks Biggest loser Bob shows it and mentions it.  It suppose to be better than the elliptical.  I remember doing 5 minutes on it a few weeks ago before I got serious about my weight loss and I was sore for two days lol. 

A few short term goals I have set for myself are:
10 pounds:  Dye my hair
20 pounds:  Buy myself a new pair of workout shoes
30 pounds:  Buy myself a new outfit & new workout outfit
40 pounds:  Get my hair done at a salon (it's been over 2 years)
50 pounds:  2 outfits & another worout outfit
70 pounds:  Redecorate my bedroom

I would like to be below 200 by the end of August so wish me luck.
Now to this weeks weigh in.
As you could tell in my previous post I had a rough week both emotionally and physically. I ended up eating out twice at a chinese buffet which was a disaster waiting to happen.  I worked out two days which was horrrible :( but I managed somehow to drop 4 pounds :) yayayay  That is a total loss of 8 pounds so far.

Thanks to anyone who is bored enough to sit and read my rambling and for all your support.

About the arc trainer:

Arc Trainer

Arc versus elliptical 2

Bad week

So after almost a 4 pound weight loss I took Sunday off to celebrate. Sunday turned to Monday...monday turned to tuesday...My daughter got sick wednesday and had to have oral surgery..Thursday I was tired..blah blah. Now yes Friday I did go and I worked hard. I worked hard because I just was hurt and upset about things in my life. I am to blame for some of them so I beat myself up over them.  I went out to eat twice. Just not an overall good week.  Everything is getting to me. I am not sleeping. I have a bit of insomnia which we all know really hurts weight loss.  TOM is on his way in a few days so I am dreading this weeks weigh in. I will only have two workouts in. Honestly, I know I will have noone to blame but myself.  I know the mistakes I make yet I keep repeating them. Why? Because I like to make everyone happy. I don't even know what makes me happy anymore. I really do not. I really don't even know me.

Weigh in #1

This post may get a little ehhhh TMI for you guys out there so you may want to skip down lol.
Anway last night I felt good ol' TOM coming on so I was nervous about my weigh in this morning.  I know from experience that I can put on a good 3-5 pounds just during that week. I actually ended up weighing in early afternoon because this is my day to be lazy where Lindsey completely takes care of Braiden and Grandma gets to rest (I feel I should clarify, she takes care of him EVERYDAY after school and through the night and on Saturday's as well but this weekend I gave her a bit of a break and let her go on a mini trip with Jared and Friday she went to a movie with a friend after Braiden was asleep) buttt you get the idea of what I am saying.
Well the first time I stepped on the scale I was leaning so I didn't trust the reading so I stepped on again. and....

-4 pounds :)

Let me tell ya I worked hard for those. Next week is TOM week so I am not looking forward to that weigh in but thank god for small miracles.I am so happy and proud.
I am going to enjoy my day off today and get back to it tomorrow.

Thank you to everyone who took time to read this.